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When I’m Down Desember 22, 2009

Sometimes i hate myself, i can’t be what Islam expect from me, what Rasul cry for, what parents hopes of me, i am useless.. I caught in the trap that i can’t go out.

Everything i am now, its a counterfelting. Maybe i do my role well in the society, but i cant be a good communicator in dealing with my Creator. I cant be a good follower of Rasulullah SAW. It seems to be so hard.

Sometimes i feel life has no meaning..

I just wondered stand before my Prophet. Fight together against Moslem enemy, be a guard beside him. I would really proud of that. I miss that. I really miss.. Life would be valuable..

Ya Allah, forgive all my fault, help me to survive..

Ya Allah dimana jiwaku berada dlm genggamanNya. Kaulah yang Maha membolak-balikkan hati ini. Kembalikanlah diriku yang bergelimang dosa, menjadi kembali pada fitrah, kembali seperti dulu lagi. Hatiku yang keras ini kembali lunak. Hatiku yang kotor kembali suci. Kembali ingat pada tujuan akhir…

Amin,